The Ranter On The Trashman

I have a habit of having a really big mouth.

I catch myself doing it in the name of good. I see something that's wrong and I reverse it to a state that's exceptable for everyone. Generally when you do what's right, there's supposed to be some sort of reward, a bonus, an extra hooray even. As with my latest failure to impress with good deeds, this didn't happen that way.

I am a former YouTuber. Still very much addicted and still fighting the urge. I would video blog about everything my life was and will be. Little did I know that when I actually encountered my situation, that very much of my life would be used against me.

The Trashman is a pornographer who basically spends his time and energy making "ghetto porn". He has sex with crackheads and anyone he can take advantage of for his website. Even, and this is going to sound rather bad, a female cousin of his.

The porn aspect really wasn't what brought me to war with him.

Essentially Trashman made a video about infecting 1500 women with the AIDS virus earlier this year. The video was originally posted on the porn website and then found it's way onto other video sties. Lastly, it found a home on YouTube.

Initially I had taken the video as being true. There wasn't a disclaimer at the end that this was a public service message about AIDS Awareness and he was very convincing in stating what he had done.  He even read off a list of names he had infected.

I had basically said after really thinking about it, that the video was bullshit. Other YouTubers who were more popular than me found themselves saying that it was a message. That promotion gave Trashman the fuel to bring his pressence on YouTube.

Suddenly, I found myself a target.

The battle has been going on for months now and I seriously doubt it will stop. Every appearance I make, every video I create, he's right there along with his followers trying to find something within my videos that would give reason to make one against me. I've fought back as much as I can, but it seems to alienate those who I thought would defend me (the few friends that I developed on YouTube) and fuel the fire in Trashman to keep going.

Being trapped in a corner deciding what to do on a site that doesn't have any overall value in the long run is insane.

Having closed my last account and stepped back a bit. I found myself watching this man fight with other people over some other shit. Some of these people who responded surprised me.

Everyone up and down claimed to me that leaving Trashman alone would make him disappear from my life. These same people who responded back are the same people who told me not to. Some have even done more than one video.

The site, and the people, are backwards.

I'm done.

And I hope I stay done.

If I go back -- it's gotta be something entirely different.