3 posts tagged “society”

Funny thing when you know a day is coming that you've prepared yourself for and you end up not being prepared for what comes. Yesterday at about 5-6am I figured what had to be done to convert my line to an Internet only line was done in seconds. Turns out the phone company doesn't do those kinds of job until after 8am no matter when they schedule such a thing.

Needless to say when my DSL light turned red, I was pissed.

See, I like having the Internet. For those of us who have a hard time establishing real relationships, the Internet is a great place to pretend that such a thing is possible. Of course the truth is you'll have a relationship, it just won't really be real. I don't care if you add video into the mix.

If people put on a performance when they meet you in the real world...you should see them on the Internet.

This is why when I say what I say about my life is real -- it's not believable. It's like I'm supposed to be acting and when I take it serious that what I say is my life, I'm breaking some sort of rule. Bullshit.

I'm on here to be on here -- to be real in one sense, but it's just a time waster.

So I'm talking to a person from YouTube on Yahoo this morning.

Things go great. I mention how I am losing my weight.

Somehow the conversation turned into something about my personal life, which is honestly a bit off and hard to explain to people.

Anytime, especially with a woman, that you talk about your personal life to someone else, you can expect the judgment to fall pretty fast on you. Wanna know why I make that mistake? Loneliness.

So an argument breaks out...

The both of us leave in a huff.

She then decides to make a video about the conversation. She claimed it wasn't about me and the conversation we had, but it's clear the words she used were connected to that. I was scrambling around just now trying to find the webcam so that I could make another account and make a rebuttal towards her video. But I realized that would draw me right back into the fire that is YouTube.

No.

I will not do that again.

Never.

I got to be better than that.

So I'm talking to a person from YouTube on Yahoo this morning.

Things go great. I mention how I am losing my weight.

Somehow the conversation turned into something about my personal life, which is honestly a bit off and hard to explain to people.

Anytime, especially with a woman, that you talk about your personal life to someone else, you can expect the judgment to fall pretty fast on you. Wanna know why I make that mistake? Loneliness.

So an argument breaks out...

The both of us leave in a huff.

She then decides to make a video about the conversation. She claimed it wasn't about me and the conversation we had, but it's clear the words she used were connected to that. I was scrambling around just now trying to find the webcam so that I could make another account and make a rebuttal towards her video. But I realized that would draw me right back into the fire that is YouTube.

No.

I will not do that again.

Never.

I got to be better than that.